How

Tell me... How did we get here?And where the fuck do we go now?

Just Me

There was just me. Then there was you too. Sitting in white rockers. Up high on a dark, chilly balcony. Watching, gazing, thinking... Overlooking the night of Sunset Beach. Staring up under Orion's Belt. Lights shining through pinholes. Set deep into the ink black sky. Imaging, dreaming, growing... Watching the waves in front of us. …

Self-Help

Current status... Currently... I'm sitting here on my kitchen floor. Thinking. Writing to you. In between my batches of chocolate walnut cookies (which smell fucking delicious btw), I'm reading a self-help book with Halsey playing in the background. Yeah yeah. I fucking broke down. Bought myself a damn self-help book from Amazon... Maybe you have …

With You

When I'm with you, I memorize every angle of your face, I breathe in as much of you as I can, I notice your every movements, I record your voice and laugh in my head. So when I'm away, I can remember every minuscule detail, Of every single moment, From when I was with you.

Release

Heal. Let go. Forgive. Release. Move on. Be myself. Love myself. Learn from mistakes. Feel my feelings. Speak my truths. Set new boundaries. Trust the universe. Watch the stars. Own my bullshit. Fix my wrongs. Find a new path. Follow my own way. Take a deep breath. And... Hope for the best.

Warning Signs

Hairs raising. Stomach turning. Goosebumps growing. Sweat trickling. Heart pounding. Mind racing. I should have followed my gut. I should have followed my instincts. I should have listened to my feelings. Because... These weren't feelings of any excitement. They weren't just butterflies in my stomach. They weren't the jitters from my unknown anxieties. These were …

Narcissist

You. You're manipulative. You patronize me and belittle me. You only care about what you want. You don't truly care about my feelings. You tell me it's all in my head. You need everything to go your way. You use me. You play games to make me come back. You're so fucking selfish and demanding. …

2020

Fucking welcome aboard 2020! A new year and a fresh start? Yeah... I think new year's resolutions are complete bull. We should all be trying to resolve our problems the WHOLE damn year, not just the first two weeks of it. However, I am curious to see what I can fucking accomplish in the next …