Tonight I’m going through the pictures of my vacation I took with you… again.
It was a beautiful trip. One truly full of so many amazing memories, conversations, and experiences. And these photos I took… I mean fuck… I have so many stunning photographs… so many gorgeous views and landscapes.
But… mixed all haphazardly within them… there’s the pictures with you…
They literally make me nauseated.
Not with disgust though… just sadness. I see those pictures and I immediately smile, but then it’s that feeling of loss that gets me. A feeling of deep loss that makes me feel like I ate at a shitty buffet in a ghetto and got E.Coli.
So what do I do?
Do I keep looking at these beautiful pictures every night for another fucking month? I mean… I highly fucking doubt it that just by staring at these pictures and praying you come back into my life that you will.
Do I just try to crop you out of every single one? I mean… some of the pictures with the two of us I look pretty damn hot… so cropping isn’t really an option for the majority of them.
Do I put them on Facebook anyways knowing your family will see them? I mean… it’s been almost two months… it’s probably a little late to post a hundred vacation pictures anyways. Then people will think I just came back and that’s annoying.
Do I send them to you at 3am to try to help you remember the amazing times we all had? I mean… never mind. I already know that’s a BAD FUCKING IDEA!!!!
I guess I just don’t fucking know at the moment. I just know that I want to share these images with the world… even if you’re in them.
Because shit… I’m not a photographer… but these are some damn good pictures.
This is so raw, unveiled, and emotional. I can feel the inner battle youβre having, with these pictures. Fuck. Iβm frustrated for you. π©β€οΈ
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Fuck I’m frustrated… I think I’m just going to facebook them today lol! Just get this shit over with π
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I can feel the pain…through the scenes of these photographs….they become live as a video as you look at each & every single of them….you did cherish the moments….but they’re about to perish slowly as I understand…but I’m sure you will move on…though it’s never easy…but one day you’ll see & understand…why it didn’t click with him all the way…every moment has a reason…something crazy beautiful is waiting for you…you just can’t see it right now…give yourself time to accept & heal…it’s a painful process…I know….Much love β€οΈ
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Thank you for your kind beautiful words. They really are like watching a film…
You are an amazing person. Thank you for your words. π β€
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One of the reasons I “click” with you is because of your crazy raw, loving, vulnerable, open, mysterious, don’t care attitude…you show who you. really are without any sugar coating….
Much love dear Hal. β€οΈ
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π Thank you! I feel like I click with you too. I don’t know you, your age, location… Really not much. But I know you’re mind is beautiful β€οΈ
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More of a crazy…but thank you for putting it beautifully πβ€οΈ
I presume, I’m anonymous in different way, huh? But I resonate with transparency…I won’t hide if you (or anyone) ever wish to know me…Much love β€οΈ
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Same here. If someone emails me personally I don’t hold anything back πβ€οΈ
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β€οΈ Now where would I look to find your email-id?…I wonder…π€
Don’t worry, I’ve a weird humour sometimes…you’ll find me (via my blog) if you ever feel the need to write directly to me.
I just love this clicking & being so direct π
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Anonymouslyhal@Hotmail.com if you ever need it π
I like this clicking too β€οΈ
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πππ. Thats difficult.
I can only tell youβ just take photos of landscapes from now on π. No people allowed. Those can never be ruined π. And however good those photos were, you will take many more good photos yet, so that you’ll eventually not mind the loss of a few π.
The facebook anxiety is not worth worrying about, it’s a very modern-day construct/dilemma!
“that makes me feel like I ate at a shitty buffet in a ghetto and got E.Coli” β LOL π . I caught coronavirus just from reading that.
Hopefully ‘they’ will one day manage to create a vaccine for broken-heart! Until then, just keep washing your hands π€.
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LMFAO!!!! You’re making me laugh over here lol. Only landscapes lol!!
π Thank you Robin for that!!
Now I’m spreading Coronavirus through my words *evil laugh* π XD
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Lol π€£. I particularly liked “Until then, just keep washing your hands” π!
Indeed, be careful with your virulent and infectious writing!! Your writing needs contraception.
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Haha!!! Yeah that was pretty damn good lol!!
Contraception ehh?
Yeah I don’t need to impregnate people with my words..π
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π€£ lmao!
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Yeah that could get messy haha
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Yes it could lol
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Let it out… Whatever you are doing here will eventually help your head π I won’t give any advice about it, you need to figure it out and you can either face it or run away.β¨ keep up!
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π Thank you!!! I’m facing it. This bitch doesn’t back down… π she might take a little longer to face it but…. that’s all I need. Time.
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Way to go β¨π
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