Tonight I drive alone. Blaring music on black roads and following lights from wet neon signs... Trying to focus on every single lyric... To every single song... That I know you also know.
Picture taken by me 3/21
I wish I could take a scalpel to this head... To release the tension... To peel back the layers... And to dig inside. Even it's just for a moment... So I can finally see... What it's relentlessly trying to hide.
You say I'm not the same person I used to be, And for once I actually agree. Because that compliant girl you knew back then... Was never truely me.
The best view you can get ✈️
With a lowered head and red rimmed eyes... She held back salted tears just praying to survive.
Like a flick of a switch she's gone. Desolate and lost in her own head. Quietly questioning... Compulsively contemplating... And savagely sifting... Through every last fragment of her mind.
"Live for the moments you can't put into words." - K.R. *Picture taken by me in Sunset Beach, NC.
Sometimes pieces of you become weaved and entwined back into my life... Briefly creating a fabric of warmth and familiarity... That invariably returns to feeling as cold as ice.
As I wake up this morning to year twenty-eight, I think about all that has happened... And all that still awaits.