1/4 Life Crisis

So... I haven't just written and vented for awhile. Lately it's been hitting me more and more that I need to make a decision with my life. The decision being "kids". I keep questioning my purpose in the world. Am I really meant to procreate? Or is being childless best for my mental and physical …

2020

This year has been nothing that I could have imagined... A year filled with bushfires, an awkward election, racism at it's finest, and an unexpected pandemic. And although all of that has been super fucking great... I am so damn ready for this next year to begin. Although I wish that the majority of this …

My Story

Recently I was given the task of writing my story for Kate Duff's magazine 'Audacity' (links below). So now that it's published... here it is...I am currently sitting on the edge of my bed, staring at a blank grey wall, wondering how I even begin to tell my story. Honestly, I’ve been trying to think …

Audacity

So an amazing woman named Kate Duff (who writes A Thousand Bits of Paper ) has recently started an online magazine. This magazine was created by Kate to promote diversity and to spread inspirational stories which spotlight many beautiful artists/poets/writers/creators. About a month ago Kate reached out to me and gave me the opportunity to take my …

Two Months

Last night my patient was told she had two months to live. Maybe more, maybe less... She sat there listening to what the doctor had to say about her poor prognosis, tears building behind her eyes. He tenderly answered her questions, leaving her no more further scenarios to ponder within her bald head. He left. …

Where Love Lies

I just finished a book that literally felt like my own personal memoir... I have read thousands of books... thousands... and I have never ever read a book where the characters, plot lines, and relationships were so unmistakably similar to my own life and relationships. It's even more mind blowing that a simple novel could …

Damn Good Pictures

Tonight I'm going through the pictures of my vacation I took with you... again. It was a beautiful trip. One truly full of so many amazing memories, conversations, and experiences. And these photos I took... I mean fuck... I have so many stunning photographs... so many gorgeous views and landscapes.But... mixed all haphazardly within them... …

The Hills Have Eyes

So sometimes I have REALLY odd patients at work... but this week's beat them all. Imagine a seventy year old schizophrenic hobbit lady that hoards garbage, has no teeth, long nails caked underneath with an unknown filth, and is covered with cat shit. Literally. She was found by family at her house laying on the …

This Week…

Tonight doesn't feel like a poetry kind of night... It feels like a thinking/venting night and fuck... have I been thinking and wanting to vent it out. This week... lord has it been a week. Honestly... it's been a beautiful disaster of a seven day stretch and I feel as if I've somehow done a …

M.J.L.

I don't know if this should be a poem... I don't even know how to start this... I don't know what to say or how to say it... I honestly don't even know if you're reading this right now... but here is what I know... I know that I hurt you. I know that I …