If you're willing to drink from what the devil's been sipping... Then maybe you'll figure out what the hell I've been thinking...
Fragments of myself have been hovering, Suspended above me in my own abyss of isolation. And all this time I've been trying so hard to grab ahold of them, Repeatedly reaching out in acts of desperation. But every time I grasped to catch them... My own touch had just pushed them farther away.
Over time my flaws and faults seemed to overpower any and all ofmy strengths and successes... And I began to feel hopelessly outnumbered by myself.
I have used my past to validate my actions. I have used my faults to excuse my circumstances. I have used my traumas to justify my mistakes. But now I must use my time to face my reality... And no longer dwell on things I cannot change.
When the pain comes...I feel it out,I cry it out,I vent it out,I purge it out,I bleed it out,I try everything to get it out.Because if I let it stay,I will never be fucking okay.
I was out on the dock Of the lake one night. I thought I was alone But you just weren't in my sight. With your hand around my neck You swiftly struck out my light. Then you tied the rope To the cinder block so tight. And you pushed me over the edge Without me … Continue reading Awakening
You've been searching, though rubble from your past. Just digging to find a reason, to make your life last. You'll need to look skyward, if you want to find hope. Because looking back at those memories, will send you straight to a rope.
Give me a diagnosis Of why I'm so hollow. Please... Give me the instructions I promise I'll follow.
Some days I wake up feeling okay. I am productive and genuinely fucking happy. Then out of nowhere... it hits. Depression. Depression is like standing alone in a gray fog of nothingness, in the middle of nowhere, and suddenly being hit by a semi. I can go from feeling on top of the world to … Continue reading Sometimes I Drive