There it is... The inevitable feeling of constriction and suffocation from nothing more than my own intrusive thoughts... I almost missed it.
Feels like a time bomb has detonated inside my head causing every single cell in my body to explode and absorb every ounce of light and sound that surrounds me to make me feel nothing less than invincible.
You're unmistakenly ignorant and completely immature... So honestly I can't think of anything... That makes you likeable anymore.
Apparently my life needs some sort of undesired consistency... An inadvertent pattern of being perused, subdued, and then emotionally misused.
It's like I've been strapped back into the same ominous rollercoaster ride... And I'm grasping at another unreliable safety belt...Just praying not to be lost in its' imminent spiral... But knowing I may be.
My mirror must just be mistaken. It's flimsy glass full of errors and deformations... Innocently creating ripples and alterations. It just has to be the reason why that the beautiful girl you see... Is nowhere close to the same girl that's appearing only to me.
It's funny to me how quickly I became so appealing to you... And then just as fast... I became as unsatisfying as the lonely soggy cheerio in your bowl of old spoiled milk.
Why does you have to move so stubbornly fast? I feel as if I'm just watching you silently slipping away from me... Like precious grains in my own hourglass.
Tonight I stood crying silent tears in the shower, my anger and sadness mixed in with the water. When I stepped out and dried myself off in the mirror, my eyes held emotions that couldn't be clearer. They held the hatred for him and all he did upon me, including the revenge in my head...I … Continue reading Steaming
Go ahead. Bottle up your broken promises and empty oaths... Seal it tight with glue made from your ghosts. Hide it safe and don't ever let it shatter... Your words to me will never fucking matter.