The second time I re-watched Netflix’s “13 Reasons Why” was with my rapist.
I literally sat down and watched a series (that graphically shows the horrifying results of rape and sexual abuse) with my rapist weeks before it happened to me.
That’s fucked up.
Tag: fucked
I Don’t
I don’t know
how many times
you’ve been broken.
I don’t know
from how high
you have fallen.
I don’t know
how you got where
you are now.
But I do know one thing…
I will stand and fight with you.
Caught
It was a
web of lies
so intricately
spun…
I couldn’t
tell where it
ended…
Or how it
had even
begun.
Acceptance
I’m left
with regret,
and I’m left
with remorse…
But no apology
will matter,
until acceptance
runs it’s course…
Disappointment
I just woke
from a dream
about you…
But you
wouldn’t
look at me…
And I
couldn’t fucking
look at you.
Fleeing
I am always
looking for
the broken ones…
The ones
who are
like me.
But who am I
to fix their
problems…
When my own
I try to
flee.
Beautifully Free
I saw you
before you
ever saw me…
And it took
you years
to finally see…
But now it’s
my fault I’m
not where you
want me to be…
Living my
own life
beautifully free.
I Did
If it makes
your hurt easier
to handle…
You can
tell yourself
that I failed you.
Because I guess
in some ways…
I actually did.
Healer
I know that
I will never
be able to
let myself heal
while trying
to heal you too…
So why can’t I stop?
In the Eye of the Storm
This storm
brewing
around us
is unsettling…
And the raging
downpour of
fear feels
threatening.
But I feel
a calmness
behind all that
is menacing…
Because all
this panic
is just another
endeavoring.
